sunflower sutra

"I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot..."

Sat, 25 May 2013 10:43:08 -0700

“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”

- Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis (via seabois)

Photo

Sat, 25 May 2013 10:42:34 -0700

Flight booked. Done with school. Waitressing. Graduating in four days. Yoga everyday this...

Sat, 25 May 2013 09:49:33 -0700

Flight booked.
Done with school.
Waitressing.
Graduating in four days.
Yoga everyday this weekend.
Visa application review at the Italian consulate next week.
It’s all coming together.

water color dayyyys

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:00:07 -0700

water color dayyyys

Photo

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:30:07 -0700

The more I look, the more I fall in love.

Thu, 23 May 2013 21:56:13 -0700

The more I look, the more I fall in love.

"I will remember the kisses, our lips raw with love, and how you gave me everything you had and how..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 21:30:15 -0700

““I will remember the kisses, our lips raw with love,
and how you gave me everything you had
and how I offered you what was left of me.””

- Charles Bukowski, “Raw With Love” (via vanishing—act)

Tonight I will smoke the pack of cigarettes that have been hiding behind my bookshelf since before...

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:07:45 -0700

Tonight I will smoke the pack of cigarettes that have been hiding behind my bookshelf

since before I went to Spain

since before I met my reflection

since before the lock jawed comments

and battered carnal fights of kisses and hands

treading across my ego.

I think it was the autumn we figured out what

we were meant to say.

or maybe the spring we chain-smoked till our hair grew thick with spite.

or maybe even the summer I left, and none of them said goodbye.

and there was a piano playing in the back somewhere

deciding that this earth isn’t genuine enough

that 80 years was not old enough

that there is nothing old in Los Angeles.

that we prevented nostalgia from entering through certain doorways

or down certain roads

or sit in specific people’s passenger seats.

So many of my favorite memories are carved out of another earth, another soil.

and our innocence and blind loyalty have melted away in the sporadic rain,

so that this earth,

and my body,

do not resemble the molds they were cast in.

The runoff must build somewhere,

the grit will build me another option

But until I find it

sitting like a sunset on the brow of my conscience

I will knit the tendrils together

till I can place myself in amongst the folds.

May 12th, 2013 Los Angeles

hellanne: awake and unreal, off to nowhere (by victoriahhhh)

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:52:32 -0700

hellanne:

awake and unreal, off to nowhere (by victoriahhhh)

what does transposing mean?

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:45:24 -0700

It means to transform into a different form/context. I’m taking all of my creative writing and poetry from my journals and putting them into a single document on my laptop for my manuscript.

transposing for hours and hours and hours and my fingers are...

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:42:05 -0700

transposing for hours and hours and hours and my fingers are tired from typing

we are dancing on the front porch of heaven

Wed, 22 May 2013 21:30:17 -0700

we are dancing on the front porch of heaven

we are junkies and one kiss poems and we cry the stars

Wed, 22 May 2013 18:54:17 -0700

we are junkies and one kiss poems and we cry the stars

snaking my body around the river of him

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:27:42 -0700

snaking my body around the river of him

every time i go abroad I think about this

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:24:28 -0700

every time i go abroad I think about this

Apollo x 10

Wed, 22 May 2013 14:28:22 -0700

Apollo x 10

My manuscript has reached 400 pages as of 11:39 pm, May 21st,...

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:39:55 -0700

My manuscript has reached 400 pages as of 11:39 pm, May 21st, 2013.

hermicent: Fika with Emma by sunbear. on Flickr.

Tue, 21 May 2013 22:56:22 -0700

hermicent:

Fika with Emma by sunbear. on Flickr.

UGH ROCK SCHOOL FLASHBACKS

Tue, 21 May 2013 21:30:31 -0700

UGH ROCK SCHOOL FLASHBACKS

Empire State Building lit violet for the NYU class of 2013...

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:49:00 -0700

Empire State Building lit violet for the NYU class of 2013 graduation tonight! #fallinginlovealloveragain